Hold your anger
Squeeze it tight
Until your hands tremble, throb and go numb
Let the blood stop coursing through them
Release
Let go
Feel them stop trembling
Throbbing numbness dissipating
Warm blood oozing through them
Bringing back the air
Let it in
Feel the promise of a new life
No longer enslaved by your anger
Removing the shackles of other’s mistakes
Captor’s strength dissolving into nothingness
Gaining control of your life back
Saying farewell to unchangeable entities
Torn and broken apart
Edges jagged and sharp
Cutting at the touch
Driving away connection
Surveying the surface
Dark, Damaged and Dangerous
Eyes viewing the peril
Deepen your gaze
Examine the finer points
Find the beauty in the imperfections
See the frailties
Go beyond exterior façade
Dark gives way to light
Wisdom comes out of damage
Knowledge eradicates danger
Jagged and sharp becomes frayed and yielding
Strength unbinds frailty
Observe the edges now
Floating free
Open to the touch of the breeze
Intertwining ends with another’s
Whole again
Joy!
My hands in your hands
My lips on your lips
My body on your body
Radiating Happiness
Love!
Words of sweet tenderness and admiration
Lips of gold
Body of heaven
Pure Delight
Change!
Words of distain echoing from your mouth
Mouth once loving and cheerful
Lips cold and unsmiling tainted with your deception
Body yearning for embrace despite sentry
Sheer Sadness
Realization!
Words weaved with such intricacies twisting the truth have made their real truths known
Mouth stills its protests to its unanswered requests
Lip’s warm caress leaving behind the slippery taste of your lies
Body’s desires being drummed away until no trace of face, eyes, lips and hands exist
Status quo
Tasting bitterness in your mouth
After bleeding me dry of all my sweetness
Time and Time again you imbibe of me
Never replenishing
Always taking
Thirst greater than the man
Never stratified with one
Seeks to quench yearnings with others
No regard for feelings of love
Once easily given
Freely and happily bestowed upon you
Lascivious nature has tainted all
My blog is having technical difficulties. I’m sorry if anyone has left a comment or sent me an email. I have not received either. I found out today my blog is deleting the comments and changing my email address. I’m not happy about it and thinking about changing vendors. I would love to hear from everyone. I’m going to try and find an outside program for commenting. For now you can use my RSS feed, my Del.icio.us account, Twitter or you can email me at beth@ebob.net (I tested today and it works.)Thank you to everyone for reading my blog and sorry for the inconvenience. I will be adding some new stuff to my page soon. I have written a new poem and I plan I using my webcam for some PG13 blogs. Get back to me and let me know what you think and of course ideas of things you would like to hear about.
My frustrations ring out into the night with no comprehension of the present or past. Traveling in and out of conscious thinking. You are in every waking thought, moment, song and dream. Every dark corner of my mind is filled with you. You move on the edge of my life never leaving and never staying. Seeping in and spreading your warmth until I am engulfed in your essence. My adoration for you ventures across all times. Times that seem to never exist but always exist. Wavering resolve with its own devotion to the past having little consideration of the future.
It is true. Some of you are asking how? Others, I am sure grimacing about the fact that it has crashed your computer or given you viruses.
How is MySpace killing your computer? MySpace itself doesn’t kill your computer. It is the HTML you put for your background display and/or comments. HMTL is wonderful and lets you do really cool creative things. But, it also has a darker side. The graphics you are using can have secret codes in them. That lets people hack into your page. Ever had a bulletin or comment posted that you didn’t write? That would be a hacker and you need to change your password right away. It is like an STD! You will need to notify your friends because it spreads and kills. Ever clicked on someone’s page and been redirected to a graphic site? Well, the page you were on has been hacked and you most likely are going to download a virus/spyware. You should let them know.
Most of the pages you get your graphic codes from have spyware on them and/or possibly viruses. It is really important to limit the pages you get graphics from. Also, after searching these pages run your virus protection program and a spyware remover program. I use Spybot for my spyware remover but there are many others. On top of that, you should learn a little about HTML to remove the links back to the original page. I do it with almost every comment I post. Also, please go and click to see your profile preview every so often. That will let you know if you have a problem like redirection to another site. I hope you don’t want to be infected and/or have your friends infected.
You may ask why I’m writing this. Well, my MySpace was just hacked into. I noticed right away and took care of it. I also ran Spybot and found 10 spyware files with sub-files. I love my computer and want it to run the best it can.Below are a few suggestions to help you with the health of your computer:
1) Make sure you have virus protection; you update regularly and scan often (especially if you go on questionable sites.)2) Make sure you have a good spyware remover and use the latest version. You need a spyware remover program even if you have a virus protection program. It will remove the stuff that your virus protection program can’t. 3) Get a pop-up blocker.4) Change your passwords.5) Limit the bad sites you go on…that includes porn and game sites.
6) Run Disk Defragmenter and Disk Cleanup ever once and awhile. This will help clean the crap off of your computer. Use defrag especially after you delete a lot of things from your computer. You will find them under system tools for windows users. These two programs should be used at least once a month depending on how much activity you have on your computer.
7) Don’t keep a lot of crap on your computer. Photos and music take up a lot of space and will slow down your computer. Delete unnecessary programs if you aren’t going to ever use them. Please do not delete something if you don’t know what it does. It can cause your computer problems. Get an external hard drive for music and pictures if you can. Otherwise, back them up on disk and online servers. I use Picasa, but there are many others out there. These sites are nice. You can access your photos from anywhere, you can send links to friends and you will always have a backup.
Delete your temporary files and cookies. They can carry viruses. Disk Cleanup can do it for you but you may not want to always run it. You can delete them under internet options. I would give you instructions but different versions have different instructions. This will delete all of your passwords and presets. You may want to go into the settings and delete the files you don’t need.
9) I also like to use CCleaner. It is easy to use and can help you get ride of unwanted files, ect.
10) Put parental controls and passwords on your computer if it is a shared computer. Your kids can do a lot of damage to your computer and you would never know it. Well, until you have pop-ups or it crashes. Plus, you don’t want them looking at questionable material.
11) MySpace has a profile editor now. You should use it. They don’t like hackers.
12) Join Facebook. This crap doesn’t happen on it.
13) I like the site www.download.com.You can find anything on there and for free sometimes. Plus, they give helpful advice and you get to see comments from the end user. They have software for virus removal, spyware and parental control.
I’m sure I’m leaving some stuff out. Let me know or tell me about better programs to help people out. Mac users let me know if you have any tricks. I know your computers are a lot safer than windows. Hope this helps someone!!! Let me know if you have any question. Addendum: I am now using Google’s free Spyware Doctor.
I have written a second blog on this subject called Myspace Viruses/How to regain internet safety!
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